when was I at my most happy last?

I'm not very personable at the best of times (to people who don't (and do) know me I may seem rude and impatient most times).

One of my saddest regrets is to have lost my greatest love simply because I didn't know (don't know) how to express the depths of my affection and joy when it comes to my home, my safe place (her).

here is a picture when I was at my happiest, when I felt the most safe.

                                             [probably playing along to a Pink Floyd song, wanting to be David Gilmour]

diddy assault video

 this is "normal" in many aboriginal women's lives. WHY!!! It makes no sense no matter how one explains it!!!

Video appears to show Sean 'Diddy' Combs assaulting former girlfriend Cassie Ventura (youtube.com) 

I think we need to listen to this

 Home and done it's just begun

His heart weighs more
More than it ever did before
What has he done?
God help my son
Hey, stay a while, I'll stay up
No sugar is enough to bring sweetness to his cup
I know sorrow tastes the same on any tongue

How was I to feel it
When a gun was in my hands
And I'd waited for so long
How was I to see straight
In the dust and blinding sun
Just a pair of boots on the ground

On the screen the young men die
The children cry
In the rubble of their lives
What has he done?
God help my son
Hey, stay a while, I'll stay up
The volume pumped right up
But not enough to drown it out
I hear "Mama" sounds the same in any tongue

How am I to see you
When my faith stands in the way
And the wailing is long done
How am I to know you
With a joystick in my hand
When the call to arms has come

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: David Jon Gilmour / Polly Anne Samson

and here is the video: ReWave CA V12 16x9 VO1 (youtube.com)