when was I at my most happy last?

I'm not very personable at the best of times (to people who don't (and do) know me I may seem rude and impatient most times).

One of my saddest regrets is to have lost my greatest love simply because I didn't know (don't know) how to express the depths of my affection and joy when it comes to my home, my safe place (her).

here is a picture when I was at my happiest, when I felt the most safe.

                                             [probably playing along to a Pink Floyd song, wanting to be David Gilmour]